Hello all. I am new to this forum and I attempted to to go to the prayer room to request prayer ,but I couldn't post.
My situation is embarrassing because I should have never found myslef in this situation . Last year I fell into sin . I was an intercessor for years prior to this .Nonetheless, I left the place that I had fellowshipped with for eight years and went back to school.
I fell away from the church for four years never committing to another place of fellowship. In my last semester of school I found myslef desiring a realationship outside of my marriage.My husband had returned to drugs,lost his job and became ill all in one breath.
I became angry with God becasue I had been down that road before with him being a drug addict and I was sure that God had promised me that I would never go through that trial again . So ,instead of falling on my face in prayer I turned to what I had been delivered from for 15 years alchohol .Which opened the door for lust and eventually me comitting adultery.
When I came to my senses I went to my friends and sisters in Christ only to receive condemnation and the pointing of the finger.Not one of them tried to pray me through .They all got together and gossiped about me .Everywhere I went there were the rumors following me . After the drama I had a nervcous breakdown and was in a mental hospital for three weeks. The world diagnoised me with depression . I knew that I had opened the door for the enemy to come into my life as I got off the wall and backslid.
I have not toatlly recovered from such a humiliating and unnecesary experience. I still have thoughts as to how I allowed myself to be so decieved to fall into sin . And How stupid I was by confessing my faults to my so called sisters in Christ in an attempt to get it right .

I now find myself reliving the same situations over and over again in my mind . The thought of how the enemy made sure he marred my name and my character by exposing my sins to everyone I ever knew .

I really want to get pass it and move on with my life . My husband and I have reconciled and we are back in ministry ,yet I can't seem to move pass the embarrassment of being a intercessor who backslid and everyone knows about it .

Hi, for you to overcome the embarrassment, humiliation and condemnation of the devil thru people around you, I suggest that you make the following resolve:

1. That truth will set you free: Orally, mentally and spiritually you must strongly declare that you have been forgiven by God; that the thoughts, gossips and rumors about you will not prosper nor will it affect or destroy your image and likeness in Christ. Delete the embarrassment, shame and disgrace in the heavenly places. Bless those who are gossiping and saying bad things about you. Pray and show them kindness and love. Maybe you can ask your pastor/leader to gather you with those who have heard and have spoken against you where you can ask them to forgive you for backsliding, then pray for you.

2. Declare also that you are already dead to your own honor, that Christ in you is the HONOR that is pure. Regard humiliation and embarrassment as God's appointment for you to put pride and false humility under the feet of Jesus.

3. Rejoice that you have been forgiven and that God has given you his grace,love and joy to move on and be a victorious intercessor and warrior in such a time as this.

God bless

Thanks a lot that was the best advice that I have received since the drama. I will apply all of your words of wisdom . God bless and thanks again .