I dont really know where to start, i have not always been depressed it comes and goes. i did not have that many freinds when i was at school i use to walk around the school field on my own, but i use to like my own company. as i got older the cloud over my head just blew away everything got back to normal, i read that some people who get depressed have often lost there mothers which is true for me i lost my mother when i was about 3 years old i never knew my mother which hurts me now because i need her so much i told my dad but he just tells me to buck my ideas up which really i dont want to hear i have a girlfriend who is 8 years younger than me and she is so strong for me she always listens to me and she always has shoulder for me to cry on which has nearly been every day if she is not with me i phone her up. first everything is ok but soon as she asks me is everything ok i just break down, some days i am fine but then some mornings i wake up thinking the worst things sometimes i dont even get that much sleep i know i am not alone that is why i am writing this to anybody who has had the same feelings and experiences typing this i am a little under the weather but that is because my dr gave me prozac and i have an appointment with a specialist i just dont know who to talk to i cant keep putting on my girlfriend she said it is not effecting our relationship but i know it is and this is hurting me so much inside i know my depression is not as bad as some peoples i think to myself am i just worrying to much but then there are days when i am in tears i dont know what to do. i just want to talk to some one who feels the same as i do. on my last note i just want to say take care everybody hope you all find ways of copping.

I hope you can really open up to the Dr. It helped me a lot, but it took a long time to get to that point, much less even going there in the first place. I also had a few people telling me to just cheer up, but it isn't always that easy, is it? I hope with the right meds & the right MD you can find the strength within yourself to keep going without feeling like crying all the time. It's a hard thing, I know. I felt like that a lot, especially after my second baby was born. I've been able to get to the point where I can function pretty well and actually find some peace, and I hope you can get there, too. It's a start even just posting on a board like this. Just because other people have worse mental problems it does not make yours insignificant. Good luck & take care. Drop me a line if you like!

Hi kimi,
you wont remember me you sent me a message last july, if your still around please reply.
thankyou

Hi,
A couple things that you wrote struck me -- I was similar to you when I was younger, being alone some of the time, but happy. And also the thing about not sleeping so well anymore.

What happened for me, was that I had quite a lot of stress, and I got low on B12, but I didn't know about the low B12.

It took several years to get replacement therapy, but after I did, the changes were remarkable. I mean, huge.

And, now that I'm getting the moons back under my fingernails, I'm even sleeping soundly with nothing more than a tiny melatonin.



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Hi karen,
sorry its been some time since i have been here but i thought for some time i was getting better then wham, i was told i was going to be a dad, but i had split up with my girlfriend in oct of 2003, its a long story. Anyway i am now back on the meds and dont want to be a dad, and i need to get better, but i keep thinking its not the boys fault. You were talking about the moons under your fingers well i had a look and they seem to be there, in fact sometimes i can see a full moon. sleeping seems to be much better thats proberly because i am getting better fingers croseed and ieat lots of b supplements and i also believe omega 3 is good for depression. My moods come and go i want to get better but also i dont want to be a dad. how have you been copping, what have you been up to....