Confessions of a Cat Breeder

I too have lost a cat. His name was Dizzy and I'd had him from 4 weeks along with his twin brother Charlie. Both were bottle fed by me and looked after through some ruff times ( Cat flu!) He has been missing now for 2 months but i'm not giving up hope of him comming back! He was a true baby, he always wanted cuddling and holding like a baby.
I think that losing him was made harder because I'd had a baby just 1 month before. I also think that it was my fault for not giving him as much attention as he was used to. Although Charlie's fine, Charlie and me pined for weks, we even searched the streets to geather but we still haven't found him! Someone said it was because he's male and hadn't been fixed, but i don't think thats true, i just think he missed all the fuss!
He was such a gorgeous boy! He'd have breakfast in bed with me while i was pregnant and spend hours 'grooming' me and my clothes!
I love him and miss him and i'm not giving up hope!!!
Every sympathy, and hope for them both to return!!
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